Sound Asleep
Sitting on the porch...scared to ring the bell. I wait for you to see me...I sit scared as hell. Rocking in the chair...hoping the squeaks bring you near. I wait for you to hear me...I'm alone so filled ....with fear. Pacing on the hardwood...not knowing what to say. When you see me pacing...when you make your way. Laying on your welcome mat...not feeling very welcome. I guess you're in there sleeping...you're so peaceful ...when you sleep. Freezing on the outside...so cold but yet so sweet. Your body's on the inside...I'd kill to feel your heat. Dailing on my phone...the number of your phone. I can't mash send....so now I'm ...going home. Walking towards my car...I'm down about myself. Getting in my car...I want to kill myself. You make me feel complete...At the same time I'm me. I'm so always not complete...without you I'm ...never free. Free from depressive states...of mind, body, and soul. Free from sad days with me...free from sad ...days alone. Turning my ignition switch...bright lights start shining through My eyes are blinded momentarily.....Holy Shit......It's you! Sitting on the porch together...not worried about the bell. We're looking in each other's eyes... I'm no longer scared as hell. This night will be a memory... One that's sure to keep. I didn't want to wake you... I thought you were Sound asleep.
You
You comfort me better than any chair, bed, room, or house--- You amaze me more than any facts, stories, truths, or lies--- You enhance me more than any drug, drink, pill, or powder--- You predict me better than any parent, coach, counselor, or teacher--- You season me better than any salt, pepper, winter, or summer--- You entertain me more than any movie, show, song, or competition--- You control me better than any school, job, jail, or prison--- You love me more than any person, God, business, or existance--- In my existance..............Believe............I do In our existance.............I live...........for you
Empty Tank
Here I am again...tired from not sleeping...Sad from not loving.
I feel miserable again...here on this plane...Here on this earth.
I've done it again...I stayed out all night.
I feel it again...I dred this flight.
Why?
Because I'm sick...Sick of being owned...
I write because I'm sick...Sick of being known.
If I was normal...Would she like me the same?
If I was just a stock boy...Would she still enjoy my name?
I'd like to think she does and would...I believe in her and believe in me she should.
I'm gonna lean my head against this window...Close my eyes and go to sleep.
I'll wake up in the next town...With thoughts beyond deep.
The days will go by as I will just act.
As the days go by I can only look back...At the good times...the fun.
At the bad times...the fun.
I wonder if she misses me as much as I miss her...I wonder if she waits to see me...I wonder if she waits?
I'd like to think she did and would...I believe in her and believe in me she should.
My heart is so curious...My mind is so blank...Without you I'm lost...
I am an empty tank.
Our Respect----We Should Send to Her
She died today. I'm not sure why? She left us this way. I'm not sure again? I thought of nonsense yesterday.......... I think of serious feelings right now. It's words like.......... Died, Killed, Hurt, and Murdered.......... That jump start our emotions for a single moment at a time.......... At a time: meaning they don't last, one day at a time becomes the unsatisfied past. She died today. And yet we still laugh! She left us this way. And yet we still complain! Even though we didn't know her, Even though we didn't see her, We don't have to act as if we never talked to her. She was one of us, we are one of her, she should be remembered..........our respect we should send to her.
